I’m going to be deleting this space and moving to Blogger instead and here is the link to it:
I’m going to be deleting this space and moving to Blogger instead and here is the link to it:
Recently I feel as though I’ve been lost in the memories of my holiday this year with my father. It’s not a bad feeling - it’s sad in all the right places and has joyous snap shots of interesting moments I had been dreaming of having - but I can’t help but feel as though in itself that is just a snap shot, nothing more.
This isn’t a new surreal feeling, it can easily be compared to my nostalgia for a time I was never born into. It would be magical if I had lived in period of Agatha Christie’s Poirot (David Suchet, of course). How wondrous it would be to ooze that class and shine daily. From the swanky suits to the now costume style threads that conveyed a sense of excellency as soon as you wandered into a room, a cigarette paused between plummy tinted lips. It was all exaggerated, but every one had their own statement to make, except their attitude suggested the steps they’d be willing to make on the life’s dance floor. It’s entirely mock able to view a period in such a way, but it’s also entirely comprehensible.
Recently I’ve had the pleasure of re-watching ‘Midnight in Paris’ a couple more times and it feels as though I understand something every single time, and since the main character also suffers from this longing and is a writer there is a comforting sense behind it, as though this film is personal.
There’s a wonderful quote in there about this particular feeling. A pedantic character named Paul believes that “nostalgia is denial - denial of the painful present… the name for this denial is golden age thinking - the erroneous notion that a different time period is better than the one ones living in”. In a way I admit I found it slightly insulting, but he had a point. Nostalgia does make you wonder and linger behind. It separates you from the now to an extent, to a point where at times you feel disconnected like troubles we that stick with us for so long that they hinder our perception of the future, and though it may be hard to admit it can sometimes ruin things. It’s not all bad though.
What Ive come to understand is that it’s actually better to cherish a time so long before you. It helps you to understand what you should be appreciating and looking for in the present. Its still part of what makes you, a quirky point. But the present isn’t full of negatives either. We have a chance to learn and be passionate over things that happened in so many different cultures, but not only that, we also have the chance to be nostalgic for what is to come, things we would’ve felt differently about if we had been in that golden age. There are many dreams I long to make true and that is my drive for now. However I can still adopt the plum lipstick of the time, picking and choosing my favourite parts of that period in order to make myself greater in my own eyes and not in the eyes of who I wish I had been.
Do watch that film!
Last night my dad told me that we should wake up nice and early in order to go visit my great-grandmother and great-aunt at their apartment, however I woke up too early, falling back to sleep a couple of times, then waking up at around 11:30; still quite a while earlier than my dad.
Today is my first official day in Portugal, and so far so good!
The only negative thus far is how quiet it is here, no one is at my fathers house at the moment so there is no movement so I went out for coffee alone and got the shakes due to not feeling Portuguese enough.
I appreciate that you have your views - as do I - but all that I disagreed with in our little chats was that you seemed to still firmly hold onto the belief that people who smoke are doing it because they want to look “cool”.
Now, as a smoker myself I was quite offended by that statement. Smoking…
Louise Gray is a Scottish designer who regularly uses bold colours and prints to just make her centre stage.
There is quite a Dame Westwood feel to her clothes, but this collection in particular may remind you of many trends from the streets of Tokyo which have a real sense of vitality and existence rather than just being.
She’s brilliant, man.
Relatively speaking, it’s been a short year. Though it feels as though I’ve been in university for an eternity, this is really only because you kind of live and breathe it every day - if you live on campus or close to it - so it essentially feels like you’ve moved out and you’re out there in the world, not the real world but something that gives you what you like about it without many of the things you don’t like.
After having a quick conversational argument with my mum this morning I realised how much things have changed for me here. What you may not understand is that I live in a very boring town, there is literally fuck all to do here, but I’ve become accustomed to a standard of living I can’t get at home (see previous post) and I feel as though maybe I have changed as a person. Granted this was an unexpected change but sometimes things sneak up on you and you become unsure of what once upon a time you were certain about, university has helped me see this.
It’s been a real eye opener to see my own personal flaws which are many more than I had previously thought, but also things that make me who I am and not the prototype of someone society has made me. The essentials will always be retained within anyone through change, it’s just the things that many people never picked up on before are now emerging to even yourself which makes you realise there’s more to you, as well as everyone else, that meets the eye.
People take this for granted. As individuals we feel the need to criticise others but when criticising ourselves we only see the clichés like “I talk too much”, “I’m not the prettiest being on the planet” or “I’m a pussy”, or things to that effect at least, but we then overlook our bad tempers, how malleable we are when around certain types of people and how weak we actually are when it comes to having to sort our own shit out.
These may be life lessons that need to be learned, but it’s not something you can take light heartedly for sure. Personally this first year has taught me too much and I kind of wish it could end, but I’m also content with what I can now see. Adjustments need to be made in order for me to change some more next year, as the story goes, but it’s cool because I have summer for that, to mould myself into a better version of me today.
As I had a visitor my focus was cut short but he simply came in to confirm that everything I just said is pretty much true and that although you love parts of being at home it kind of feels a little restrictive.
All in all it’s been a good year and I’ve met some good people who I’ll actually miss I think, regardless of the cock ups, and it’s really been life changing in a way so I’m just waiting for more to come in the form of second year for now. Lord almighty, I will need help, but for the most part it’s enjoyable a chance for me to grow and I’ll definitely be older (I’ll be twenty by the time 2nd year commences) so hopefully somewhat wiser than this year… Here’s hoping anyway!
Kony 2012 is something most of us are now familiar with thanks to a video that went viral by the Invisible Children, a charity that operates within Uganda wishing to make the invisible children of war visible.
Joseph Kony is a the leader of the Lord’s Resistance Army (LRA) which was formed in Northern Uganda who’s beliefs are based on the Ten Commandments and Acholi tradition. The LRA have been associated with human rights violations such as murder, abduction, sexual harassment and mutilation, and that is what Bobby Bailey, Laren Poole and Jason Russell found on their trip to Africa to document the genocide in Darfur. Upon finding out the atrocities committed by the LRA they begun Invisible Children, a charity which wishes to not only highlight acts of war being committed of which we do not know of, but also to help the children affected by the LRA who are trying to escape, along with their communities, through the unison of the Western World in making Kony’s name as famous as that of Lady Gaga and Facebook’s Zuckerberg.
Looking further into the charity however, with it’s rating of 3/4 stars on Charity Navigator, which gives ratings to U.S based charity organisations, there have been a lot of issues amongst the good they have brought to the Northern Ugandan community. Some of these issues have stemmed from the way they handle what is happening in Uganda, like for example how their want to bring peace through asking for help from the government therefore by default the United Nations led to many deaths in relation of all agreements but not the capture of man behind the LRA.
Juba, South Sudan, 13th November 2006, the United Nations finally agreed to a meeting with LRA leader Joseph Kony in order to address the humanitarian allegations against him and to advance peace talks between both the LRA and the Government of Uganda. Though there was an agreement in 2006 to go along with the peace settlement though only finalised in 2008 after 2 years of negotiations, according to the S.1067, Lord’s Resistance Army Disarmament and Northern Uganda Recovery Act of 2009, findings, section 6, though they made a final peace agreement in April 2008, in May 2008 Kony refused to sign it and commenced new attacks on Northeastern Congo. This continued into September, and according to statistics mentioned in Section 7 of the bill, since that time in 2008 the attacks to Northeastern Congo and Southern Sudan “led to the abduction of 1,500 civilians… and the displacement of more than 540,000 people”.
A couple of months later, December 2008, military organisations from all three countries trying to secure themselves against the LRA launched an operation against them, focussing on their bases in Northeastern Congo in order to capture Kony, however this mission failed and the LRA retaliated by killing an estimated 900 people in 2 months within both Congo and Southern Sudan.
Although Kony failed to sign the final peace agreement Uganda continued with their efforts to restore the areas affected which the Invisible Children Charity helped with admittedly, though they also aided Uganda’s security forces who themselves have human rights allegations against them though they feel this is completely okay as they are not as bad and what the LRA is doing which just makes it seem as though they are in fact fighting a big fire with a smaller one, and though there is corruption within African politics, that is still no excuse for funding them thus making them stronger because if you believe you may be able to have someone as ‘evil’ as Kony sign a peace agreement, then surely you would believe that a nation that has been the attacked and the attacker would also be willing to sign something similar, correct?
We have all been taught as children that two wrongs do not make a right however it is easy to understand why people feel that Invisible Children Inc has made a mistake here and with its inability to have its finances externally audited to this day raising questions as to how the millions of dollars’ worth of donations are being distributed.
Joseph Kony is the bad guy, yes, but there are many ways of handling a situation and though it is admirable the way that Invisible Children have united millions of people worldwide to raise awareness of this, it is crucial that we perhaps look further into who we support and look beyond just this one cause of injustice but instead at the many other injustices that haven’t yet become viral.
Maria Arroja Ferreira
Can’t believe I’ll have to pick my modules for next year in a week or two. D:
This is all so scary it makes me feel worried, which in turn makes me feel sick, because it feels like I’m running out of time to live the life I want instead of living for university and a job.
Money isn’t what I’ve…
One note has come down from my wall!
I’ve been on time for my critical thinking and actually woke up 2 hours early for it for a change!
The problems I have with mornings is usually that, well, it’s morning for one and I’m one of those people/students that do well at night but not so much during the day, nocturnal. It’s never been something I’ve been good at from the day I was born. I was one of those babies that cried all night then slept during the day (at least sort of, anyway).
Another problem is that mornings in the UK, especially during the colder months, is that when you wake up the landscape around you is disgustingly grey, lacking in life, lacking in vitality, and there’s not much you can do about it which ruins my mood instantly. I’ve tried wearing brighter clothes during the winter to make up for the lack of colour in my life during this time but it brightens other people’s day more so than my own.
What I did to get up this morning was to force myself out of bed and to make a move. Getting out does let you appreciate the wonders of -6 temperature, the little wonders that there are such as the frozen over grass and the sexy breath that consumes the otherwise dull air around you. It’s all great!
Shall update soon! x